Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Back to Reality


Well, she's been home now for a week. It's only taken that long to undo all that positive karma we had when she was here. Yesterday, on my birthday no less, she called me to tell me that she'd won the sweepstakes and she was frustrated with the fact that she couldn't go use the payphone to call them. A friend of hers called me upset because my mom was insisting she take her to the phone. When I called my mom back she got angry with me on the phone and pretty much hung up.

This morning, she called, and I was thinking that she'd remembered it was my birthday and was calling to say Happy Birthday, but nope, she was calling to tell me that she was angry with me because "I had told XXXX to cut her phone off." Without getting into specifics, it was just not good to hear my mom yelling and so upset. She was insistent that I call XXXX and tell her "not to cut off my phone until Dec 1st, because I'm going to win the sweepstakes!" When I asked her what she needed money for, she said to "pay me back for helping her." I said Mom, you don't owe me any money and you don't owe anyone else any money. There is no reason why you even need any money. All your bills are paid, and you have everything you need, just enjoy it. . . That didn't go over so well. She got mad at yelled bye and hung up on me.

Yes, I know she's sick. Yes, I know she has AD. But it doesn't make it any easier. This is the first time since I've been alive she forgot my birthday. Selfish? Maybe, but it was important to me to know she's still here. She's still my mom ya know? That she remembers family and the important things. But instead, she's focused on some crook who's just brainwashed her and is making this dreadful disease worse on her and everyone else. I really wish our government could do something about this. It's really out of control.